So, this is workable. I don't have to build my walls as high as I thought that I would have to. It seems possible for me to have some protection but I do not need a complete fortress to protect me from the destructive elements of my life, I have the ability to manage them and to actually repel them, which is a most appreciated change as of late. I can do this and I can maintain friendships without having to look for relationships everywhere which is something that I have been struggling with. It is a pleasant knowledge. One hug will tell a lot about someone and one's feelings for them. But this further affirms another situation. Oh well. I'll survive.