So, things have started to straighten themselves out majorly. I think that something serious changed last night and I realized that I don't have to do this alone, I can talk to someone about it and they will be there for me. I can trust as long as I recognize that they are not going to hurt me when I trust them. I can still smile, it won't kill me, just split my lip. I don't have to avoid being physically close to people, most of the time they don't bite. I learned a kiss does not have to be hard or forceful, they are wonderful when they are light and gentle. They carry more respect and emotions then the ones which are filled with raw desire. Just having a shoulder to lean on means so much and I must wonder what I have missed while isolating myself this past year. Age doesn't matter as long as it's with 3 years either way, it's maturity which counts. And similarity. Which is rather scary when you are so similar to each other, even your dogs look alike. And I wish that last night never had to end, it was an epiphany for me and I don't know how much he knows he help me heal last night. So much learned from a single movie and so much which occurred following the plot. One friend must always take care of another, for they would be lost without one another

Our life boats bumped into each other at the right time on this treacherous ocean... we can lash them together and make it through the storm...